Maybe, Just Maybe

I just had a new thought. Maybe the reason I am seeing new aspects of this mood disorder in my life, as of a few months ago, is because I can handle it now whereas I couldn't have before. Maybe I couldn't handle in Christ what I can now handle in Christ in regards to this disorder. Maybe going through ECT and the depths surrounding it strengthened me according to His Word and loving kindness and prepared me for these present day battles. I thought they couldn't get any harder than ECT; I was mistaken. There's an intensity to this disorder that's driving me to the brink. A brink, let's just say, I would have been glad to trust others that it existed and counsel them or I might have quickly judged and written them off as unholy, among other things. But here I am, bless God, at that brink. Jesus has really got me worried on this one...not because I worry He won't come through. I'm more concerned with my ability to hold on as He opens Himself up in my life and shows me that HE IS MY RELIEF...He is the balm that soothes. I mean, goodness gracious, I just don't have time to be bothered with this persistent illness...

Maybe, just maybe.

God of This City

Gonna pick up the posts again...

Linus Speaks

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